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2011 was yesterday, cool.

2011 was a year when i learned and experienced a lot of new stuff. turned 18, club, transferred to polydins, backslided from god, lost friends, know new friends know who cares and who doesn't. im still stucked there though. and my classmates!

quite like going to club, with drinks of course, maybe because it allows me to stop thinking for awhile. was not very willing to transfer to polydins, but well i think i learn a bit from there, learned to be independent with my walk with god and of course i make new friends there, people whom i never thought of getting close with like jessalyn, my crime buddy :D. hmm, sometimes when i dont care, thats when i think god is not really a must in my life. yea, i lost friends, i find it quite stupid though, but yes i still think of a few of them, like sylvia and kelly. think only la. and yes, im still stucked there, i tried getting out, dont seems to be working. im being forced to make new friends because those who left me were those who were close with me. laugh with charlotte, annoyed tulasi and melia, complain to yeehuey, irritated by another ivan yeah ivan oon, smoking mate baoxuan and zhihao. ok, my poly life like start later. ololol.

not forgetting huimin and shiwei, i think we talk about everything. and tried new thing like sitting beside the bridge and eat durian. lurbz la.

i think harder because i speak or do something now, if i dont think, lazy would be the excuse i use. bad manz.

new year resolution, i dont have any. because i dont resolution like stop smoking, stop drinking or stop spending so much money. pointless.

ok thats all.

hello 2012.

Hi

Hi, reached school too early, nothing to do, so yaaaaaa.

welllll, i knew that day will come like sooner or later.

anyway, had a bad day yesterday. quarrels, cigg crushed, 1.5 hours of sleep. damn.

Hi im back! :D

okok, he's always there to hurt me and im always that stupid to get trick. forget ittttt.

mom's super cute. she knows about it and keep on comforting me.

it's obvious that i cried but she asked :"wa, cold until got flu ah?"

hehe

god really place people into your life for a reason. really want to thank god for siewling. receive a text of encouragement from her just now, when im feeling damn low. it really makes me feel better. in fact, this is not the first time she text me like that. :') sorry for being such a troublesome sheep.

i miss jade, i miss fiona.

god, i miss you.

Hi. i dont know what to post. follow me on tumblr.

http://gaspingforairfromlaughing.tumblr.com/

kthxbai.

i fit in to no where, i dont belong there. should just leave yes?

Thankyou God.

learn the secret of being contented in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. i can do everything through him who gives me strength.

where's my holidayyyyy?

Hi. busy like a bee, looking for honey. D: whatever.

kkk, i have an awesome dad. friday, went for 5n1 bbq, came home at 4+am, without keys. phone no batt, cant call home. doorbell spoilt, knocked the door till my hand pain, gave up, went to sylvia house's, borrowed her phone and called home. i think my dad heard about it, today after he went to buy a new doorbell and fixed it up. <3 <3 <3

monday still got to go back to school. wo hen lei ah. :(

you are not the only one who's confused and stressed about life. suck it up dude.

i dont need hypocrites to care for me. care more for yourselves k.

aiyo.

heartbreak ah.

Where are you?

are you with her? really hurts to see her like that, becoming someone i don't know.

really have no mood for all the assignments. goddddddd, whats happening?! :'(

her voice irritates me now, like an outsider, who is she?

give me back my sister.

HA HA. now that you've seen your own son's result with your own eyes, want me to save/help him alr huh? who's the one who told your own son " dont force you, let you study on your own." you, you were the one. every time i asked him to off the comp and study, what did you say ? "dont force him la, he will study one." yes, he studied siaaaaa, look at his result. i told you to scold him already, dont listen. you want to see your son retain right, ok noted.

shall wait and see.

thank god.

wow! got to tell everyone this man! god is good, ALL THE TIME!

was panicking about what to draw for my remaining 5 pages of sketchbook and A2, at 2.15am! so i was listening to some praise and worship songs, then some ideas came into my mind and boom*! i finished the remaining 5 pages of sketchbook in 15 minutes and i did 4 extra pages! LOL k la 4 only.

i also got ideas for A2, which i did before in secondary school, in A3 size paper though. but i trust in god! i'll do my best, god will do the rest!

waaaa really thankful mannnnnnn. God indeed is the best provider. :')

Jeremiah 17:7-8, “Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in Him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

wts

i didn't even take her money but she keep insisting that she put it on the table. seriously, every time talk about money, she's the one who loves to make everything damn complicated and said "headache."

after talking to me for 30mins, thinking where the hell your money go, you still think i took your money.

im not the one that want to talk about money when we talk, it's you. you keep thinking that i want to spend all your money, every time i open my mouth and talk to you , you'll be like "every time you talk to me, jiu mei you hao shi." you dont know how i feel when you says that. |||

Come back.

i just want to stay by your side because God i know you are the best comforter, the best listener.

i know you want me to depend on you more, you want me to be stronger than before, lord i'm trying, i've never depend on you so much in my life before.

what im facing now is temporary right?

God, bring my friend back.

If this is what you want.

i dont know if i dont have enough sleep or if im stress, damnnnn, im sick again. sucky feeling.

that feeling, you care for her so much yet she doesnt care and just continue doing it. every time i think of it, i will feel damn sad, i tear. as if i've lost a friend. well, losing i guess. im losing you. i dont want to say too much, im afraid i will lose you like i lost G as my goodfriend.

note this, im sad. not emo.

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Hi. 1 week of poly life has passed, i can only say that its super tiring, school start at 9am and ends at 3pm for this block which is four weeks. and i have 2 subjects in this block. 50 pages of sketches. 3 hours of drawing in school, last time in zhss 1.5 hrs i complain alr.

and i guess everything's changing. lesser time to hang out with sec schoolmates, got to get use to it i think. this is life. sad life. haha.

oohohohoh.

had design school orientation this week, camp ohana, from monday to thursday. at first i thought i wont like it, because like dont know anyone. but after we know one another, super awesome man! we start to disturb/bully each other. haha.

all the cheering/shouting/walking/running/jumping/dancing/ghost story/dirty jokes it's never enough, wish i could i have more of it. well, it's super duper awesome. feel super blessed to be in Tp design school, super happening one. hahahahahaha.

Yachi- Yata. (L)

cant wait for monday, go to school, go to class. drawdrawdraw. drawEss & idea for the first two modules. pray hard i will enjoy sketching, dungggg. i hate drawing, i hate sketching.

easter svc -signature later! it's gonna be an awesome one!

oh ya, i had dinner with mom just now, feels really awkward to go out with her only. i dont know what to talk to her. hahahaha. i think all children love their mom more than they hate their mom, or is it just me? hahaha.

got to go shaomu at mandai before going to svc later. alrighttt. goodnight. :D

I dreamt of you.

I've no idea whether you will see this. Well.. this is for you. i still think of you once in a blue moon, you're still there. you are actually a simple person, lyrics describes you, but you made yourself so complicated. I've tried so many times to please you, I'm not going to do it again. Done trying. Tftmph.

This is it.

There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything.

ZZ

like seriously, i searched high and low around the house for the thumbdrive just to send you your songs, then i get that kind of treatment/ attitude from you. wait very long not happy is it? then go download yourself la!? ask other people help you la. wtheck.

dont be a nice person, they will take you for granted. syl.

i wish i can do what others do. what can you do? where the hell are you!

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seriously you oi simi? dont want give me money go out, nevermind, i stay at home. i on the fan, you say help dad save electricity bill, nevermind, let you off. then still what? what you oi for? sit at a corner use comp, offended you is it?

thank god for black swan! entertained me for an hour plus. it's a nice show, but a lot of gory and sex scenes. dylan ng said that girl dance like a retard. yayaya.

arrrr what a monday.